Episode 028: Infertility Struggles with Maddie Lambert

Maddie spent the last three years struggling with infertility. Over those years, she was diagnosed with PCOS, prolactinoma, and endometriosis. They completed six medicated cycles and multiple IUIs. Finally their RE sat Maddie down and told her enough is enough, she would either need to move on to IVF (which was not something her and her husband were comfortable moving forward with) or it was time to hang up the towel. Maddie was distraught and advocated for just one more IUI since her insurance covered this one final procedure.

That one final IUI resulted in a triplet pregnancy! However, before eight weeks, Maddie and her husband learned that two of their three babies would not make it. Today, Maddie is 17 weeks pregnant and thriving with their one miracle baby.

Below is a poem Maddie wrote during her own journey.

Lord

of Sarai 

Of Hannah

Of Elizabeth 

Lord of women 

Who laugh at the face of hope 

Who bargain and plead

Who were shown favor 

When will it be my turn? 

I have laughed 

I have bargained and plead

Where is my favor? 

Is this a failure on my part or on yours? 

Do you sit with me and wait? 

Do you see me? 

Do you already know the end of this road?

Perhaps this is an invitation 

To redefine what it means to be a mother 

For mothers are more than child bearing women 

Mothers are warriors 

Mothers are caretakers 

Mothers are advocates

I am already all those things

Help me to see my worth, already there

Lord of women 

Who sit in tension 

Who bask in joy 

Who are afraid

Who wait  

Be with me in these spaces 

Validate my pain and my joy even when the world won’t

And make me the one 

who Laughs

Who bargains and pleads

And who has received your favor anyways

One day soon

Tune in to hear the details of Maddie’s story.